Message for the Day

12 04 2017

I’m a deaf teacher.  I know many deaf people don’t claim me as deaf because I have two CI’s that I use to hear my students, but the nature of my job as a middle school theatre teacher is that I prefer to be able to hear instead of requiring my students to learn sign language.

When I was going to become a teacher, my supervising teacher told me “You can’t be a teacher, you’re deaf, you won’t be able to hear the kids”.  It broke my heart.

It was the first time, that I’ve ever experienced that type of attitude and recognized it for what it was.  All my life, I’ve heard “you’re deaf, but you don’t sound deaf!” or “I think it’s amazing that you’re able to function….”

I really struggled with it, because all of my life, I’ve been surrounded by people who have always encouraged me and have always pushed me forward to accomplishing the great things that I want to do.  It affected me so badly, I recognize now that I was in a period of depression.

I’m glad to say that I’ve proved him wrong.  I’m glad to say that I am soon to finish up my 3rd year of teaching.  I’m glad to say that I didn’t let that man decide my fate, and impact my choice of careers.  I love my job.  I love what I do.  I bet I love it more than he does.

Don’t let anyone deter you from your dreams.  Don’t let any one stop you.  Don’t let anyone keep you from doing what you want to do.  YOU are important.  YOU are valued.  You are loved.  You have something to offer the world.



Where I Should Be

22 08 2013

I am so not where I thought I would be in my life at this point right now.  This is the thought that has plagued me for the last year or so.  I’ve said this to my friends in so many different ways as we’ve talked and spent time together. 

If I were to paint the picture of my perfect scenario, I would say that I would be:

  • Working at a school in my own classroom, being innovative and having a real impact upon the lives of kids.
  • Enjoying my commute to work everyday.
  • Not single, and working on a committed relationship that would hopefully end up being a life-long relationship
  • I would be finished with the things I want to do with my house.
  • My OCD would be more manageable.
  • I would be healthier all the way around.
  • I would be reading more.

Instead, I am spending my life in an incomplete house, living an incomplete life, working on an incomplete vision.  I have to be okay with that.  I really don’t have a choice.  I have done everything that I can do, and now, it’s just a waiting game at this point.  What happens next? 

Don’t get me wrong.  I’m not bitter.  Sure, nothing is like where it’s supposed to be, and I never thought I would be in this situation like I am, but I am at a place where I can do different things.  I’m working on some sort of longer story, yeah, I’m writing creatively again!  I haven’t done that in years.  Because of the nature of my work, I am able to be there and do things for people that I haven’t been able to do before.  Because of the nature of my work, I also am able to volunteer at schools when school starts again.  I have a more flexible schedule, especially since sleep and I do not seem to be friends right now.  And, I can spend time auditioning for plays and things like that!

So, maybe where I should be isn’t the greatest dream for me right now.  Maybe I need to live this lifestyle for awhile so that I can appreciate the structure of life while teaching.  Who knows?  The thing to remember is this:  Life could always happen.